hold your head H I G HM Y darling
for this is W A R
and war is not G E N T L E
canon diverget & private nicole 'lila' barton from earth 1610 & mcu. written by annathis blog contains triggers & spoilers!
it’s quite AWKWARD to see him sitting in the couch, mind probably somewhere else yet still ready to FIGHT if needed. in all honesty, lila is CURIOUS as hell to know the man better ;; she has heard about him everytime someone would tell her a story about captain america, but having cap’s best friend at arm reach is quite DIFFERENT than hearing stories. ‘hey,’ she says clearing her throat a little. ‘well— aunt nat told me you taught her some of her FAMOUS moves.’ she says smiling excitedly. with a quick nod, the smile fades, and she takes a notebook and a pen. ‘i study biomedical engineering at cuny and i was wondering if you’re okay with me asking questions.’ a pause. ‘about your arm of course.’
◤ Laura opened the book, the contents showing nothing but pictures of babies
❝ Well, it’s an old baby album of you and Cooper. I thought maybe you wanted to enjoy some pictures.❞ ◢
lila looked at her mother with a little smile on her face. so that was it. baby pictures and no one around. sitting next to the woman, lila gave a quick look at the first picture. ‘ok —but is someone coming home? how did you find it?’
The alcohol she consumes would burn even if her throat wasn’t HOARSE from screaming — eyes dry, bloodshot & lifeless. Numb. She’s moved passed the tears, now. As much good as sobbing had done her. NUMB. She understands why Tony favors this form of coping, now. Cognac hues flicker upwards, detect movement in the doorway. BILE rises in her throat at the sight of the other. ❛ ——- get the hell out. NOW. ❜
it’s not so RARE for the girl to wander around the lab during her free time, and tony’s SILENT agreement to her actions only made her put on enough confidence to walk in and a DEMAND to see everything in the name of KNOWLEDGE( back then it seemed a good excuse: young girl, first year at college, hopefully to be NEXT greatest engineer in the whole world —everything in this order ). so when she hears a STRANGE sound ( is it sobbing? is it laughing? ) greyish green hues start to look for the door where the sound comes from. as the brunette before her gives her most welcoming greet, lila rolls her eyes dramatically, pretending not to listen. ‘you look like shit.’