okay but don’t imagine lila barton working in a lab with a new shiny lab coat on. don’t imagine doors opening all of a sudden and one of her teammates enters all covered in wound and blood, asking her to patch them because they dont want to bother other people or go to the hospital. and lila barton is just a biomedical engineer, but she has some knowledge and she patiently patches them. maybe she has had to help them when they wounded so bad that she couldn’t be sure they would pass the night. don’t imagine her at night, when she has no missions and she’s just sitting on the bed in her room, all the lights turned off. that’s the moment when her worst fears show up and when she realises that it’s not even nightmares anymore. it’s memories.